Really don't mind if I sit this one out

This was, quite possibly, the worst day of my life. I spent the entire day repeatedly getting hit with bad news and horrid information that I had no control over.

Many people say that bad news and depression can make for a better writer, or "that which doesn't kill you makes you stronger." Tell that to a heart attack patient...

I also feel incredibly heavy guilt over the fact that my novel stalled about 6 months ago. I still love it, and WANT desperately to write it, but have not be able to get in the frame of mind to sit down and enter that world. It's an odd tightrope, as you can't just sit and pound out a serious novel...it's all about being able to get the proper way of thinking, and knowing how a complex character will react, dialogue that is more than just exposition, and making sure the themes you want to hit are just beneath the surface instead of hitting the reader int he face.

A action novel isn't hard. It's all plot, and dialogue flows pretty quickly. Same with a mystery or the "occult detective" novels I write. Those are almost a vacation.

But, if I ever want to grow as a writer, I have to push myself beyond where I am comfortable. I have to try and grab things beyond my reach. And it's harder. Lately, it's been too hard.

So, I'm going to try and find that center again so that I can get back to "That New Radio Show" and finish it. I owe it to the characters, the idea and themes that still hold true.